Well I've got back all my preliminary results and they aren't very satisfactory if I dare say. People may say it's okay, many people have worse results. Well let me ask... WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ME??? You ask me,"Why aren't you satisfied? Your marks are better than most..." 'Better than most?' Why should I care if I'm better than most? I should be better than myself! What is 'satisfactory'? Satisfactory is a word created by underachievers. One should never be satisfied. Satisfaction is only reserved for those who can no longer improve.
I'm really upset by all this... Who should I blame? If I had to blame anyone, I would blame determinism. There is no fate. There is no chance. There is only determinism. Result is the product of the accumulation of events. Events such as an overuse of yeast in my biology paper, not being adequately prepared during the paper, not eating breakfast, not being careful. These events determined the result. These events are also results of other events, eg. Bad habits, improper upbringing, being stubborn. These events also originate from more sources. In fact, it is like a family tree, it can be traced back to my ancestors. That is the essence of determinism. All actions today may affect the outcome of your descendants. There is no fate. Only determinism.
Went to play a little basketball today... I'm terrible at it though (determinism at work). Spent 90% of the time staring at the clouds though. Then I understood. The world is not made out of yourself and luck. The world is linked. Every single atom, the wind, the light, the people. Every cloud in the sky is made up of millions of water droplets. Every water droplet has it's story, in fact, every molecule of H2O has it's own story. It's story is made of how it was created, how it came about to be one of the billions of molecules in the cloud. This story is affected by the world and it's people. By me and you. Buy a fruit. Think of it's origins. Do you understand that the apple you are holding is something unique? Among millions of apples, this apple was bought by you. Everyone is special? No. EveryTHING is special.
I was teased today that I had a crush on Sherilyn along with Big Nic. This made me think a lot. I have come upon the conclusion that I don't know. When I say I thought a lot, I really mean I thought a lot. Why don't I know? That is because Love does not fit in the cold logic of determinism. After adding all the factors, I can only reach the level of friendship and concern. Therefore I conclude that love is an unknown factor. This unknown factor is also nearly inexplicable by determinism. The only explanation is due to our genes. Which is rather far-fetched.


Why do I think so much? Try determinism

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