Well folks this is probably going to be the last time I blog....until the end of the 'O' levels. Seriously I really don't want to give a f**k about these things anymore. Exams, exams, exams. When a person crosses a certain obstacle, another obstacle will pop up. That is natural because that is how people improve.
I have this ideology when it comes to obstacles. Obstacles in life are like hurdles in a track meet. One hurdle is easy to jump across. However, when many hurdles are put close together, it will be difficult to even jump across the first one. State of mind. Determination. Hard work. These are a few of the criterion needed to finish the race we call life. But when all the hurdles are place together, determination will break for the weak willed. Unfortunately, I am one of them....Perhaps all I can do is to smile it through. Hard work may not be enough.
Some of you might have noticed that this blogger has become rather emo these days. You are right. I am so tired. I want to reduce the number of hurdles in front of me. Firstly, I should break ties with some of my friends. This will let me have more time in my life, rather than thinking on how to improve our relations. But it is rather difficult to hate people....I tried to be rude but I couldn't help but apologize the next day.... I think my problem with interpersonal relations is a mental block. It is either good relations or no relations at all. So to people who I was trying to make friends with: wait until after 'o's....
I think I have found a new interest in my life. There is this person I really want to be with. She is someone I had known since I was 4. When I was in Australia, she was there. When I was in France, she was there. She was like a sister to me, now she is only an acquaintance... After the exams I'm going to ask her out, can't let this once in a lifetime friendship go to waste..... I totally don't know what I was thinking before....

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